Hi everybody,
HOW ARE YOU?! If it feels like it’s been a long time since you’ve heard from me, that’s because it has been. I’ve been deep in my own self-healing work and truthfully, I’m still sorting it out. When it comes to healing there is no finish line, no final destination. Because the deeper you go, the more that you discover. The more you learn, the more you have to unlearn. And on and on it goes. At times this process has felt extremely daunting and at other times it’s felt like a big sigh of relief.
Oh, so you’re telling me no one has it all figured out? Thank God.
While I don’t think there’s a finish line to our own healing, I do think there is a point in time where you are able to make peace with everything that happened. I am simply not there yet. Recently, I was going through all of my old Substack posts and one of them is titled “Dark Night of the Soul.” I wish I could go back in time to tell that version of myself to buckle up baby!!! Because the party is just getting started. LOL.
As many of you know, I launched my business in September 2020, peak pandemic, offering online private yoga and yoga teacher mentorship. From there I ventured into life coaching, quit my full time job and had an absolute meltdown when I realized I wasn’t making enough money to pay my bills. Cue ensuing panic and me jumping right back into the same field of work that I had just left.
So why return to writing? Because it kept calling me. Writing is the one part of my business that I couldn’t seem to let go of. It was my favourite part of each week, sitting down to write my newsletter post. When I first started teaching yoga in 2014 I did so with the intention to give back to the community that gave so much to me. Looking back, I can now say that I’ve done that tenfold. Now I’m committing to my writing more seriously for the same reason – I need something to get back to me.
For me, writing is a form of self-expression. It’s a way for me to make sense of this crazy world that we live in. It’s a way for me to say hey, I’m here, here’s what I think and here’s why I think it matters. I choose to share not because I think I’m the best writer in the world but because other people’s writing has helped me feel seen. If what I write resonates with even just one person, then all of this feels worth it.
So this is just me saying hi, I’m here. I’m the same, but I’m also different. I suppose that’s what happens… Time changes us, but there is always something within us that remains the same. That thing is what makes you, you and what makes me, me. It is the very essence of our being. And ultimately, I hope that’s what my writing gets you a little closer to – you.
Sending lots of love,
Sophie x